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HOTEL CALIFORNIA – SMALL TOWN BLUES

July 3, 2015

I’m originally from Los Angeles, California.

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Around the age of 6 or 7, my parents decided to live in the Antelope Valley, which the real estate was cheaper and a better quality of living compared to the big city. Lancaster was the first stop. As a kid, it was difficult adjusting to the educational system. Around the early 90’s, there was a lot of racism in the school system from faculty and students alike. Even when I went to private school down the line, I felt like didn’t belong. People assumed that all black people were on welfare and ignorant, while my sister and I lived in a suburban neighborhood, talked proper, and dressed very nicely.

Next, my parents decided to move to California City in 1993.

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This was the first time they became homeowners. My Dad used his VA Loan, which helped out tremendously. At first, I enjoyed the country lifestyle and being able to play outside in the streets. Once I hit 13 or 14, I became highly annoyed, like I am now. I didn’t have too many friends. I was a nerd and most of my friends were military kids, so they moved away.

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I used to remember traveling to L.A. with my family and being fascinated with the big city life.

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I would have desires of graduating from college, owning my own home, living in the big city, and one day raising a family. I would always cry when we left L.A. because I knew what would be waiting for me in California City — no life!

Once I hit high school, my parents put me back in private school, which was a mistake (My mom and dad realized I was “boy crazy” and couldn’t imagine me being a teen mom). The school lowered their religious and moral standards, so any student was accepted. I would have girls threaten to fight me and everything. I decided to be home schooled around 10th grade and graduate early. I ended up working a few jobs such as a waitress, grocery store clerk, medical assistant, and then got laid off at my last job, which was working at a Chiropractor office. I decided right then and there that I needed some adventure and culture, so I swore in the U.S. Army in 2005 and headed out to Basic Training.

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Fast forward 9 years later, I moved back to my small town last year from the Army. I had a hard time with the divorce and the hectic Army schedule. It felt nice to finally be back at home in the arms of my family.

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I also landed a job 15 minutes away from my home and get to finally live in my house after 6 years. It’s been over a year and I’m starting to feel miserable. I live 45 minutes to 2 hours from all of the cities with action. My life mostly consist of work and college, which has been getting me down lately. I don’t feel motivated at all and feel like my whole life is dedicated to working hard to make a living for myself and to maintain my independence. Some days, I want to cry or punch a hole in the wall.

When I lived in NC, I joined a Yoga and Pole Fitness class. I felt relaxed, confident, and vibrant.

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(**Actual photos of my Pole & Yoga studio in NC)

In this area, the closest Yoga and Pole class is 60-100 miles away. Also, the mall was nearby, with a few other favorite stores and if I ever needed a break from Fayettiville, Atlanta, my NaNa, and “cray cray” cousin Miko weren’t too far away.

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Back to my physical fitness, I have a gym membership here, but due to small town living, a lot of drama goes on. For example, I went with my mom to the gym just to hang out (I wasn’t working out). I had on regular non-gym clothes (flip-flops, tank top, and shorts). While my mom and I are laughing and joking around, a staff member that was off shift and working out comes up to me in a nasty attitude and says, “You can’t be in here with flip-flops. You need to leave.” The main reason she came up to me is because when I walked in, all of the guys were checking me out. I guessed I ruined her “flirtation mojo.” I can’t help being a 34DD and a size 0. I was born this way! One of the staff members on shift came up and started hitting on me. He even told me that I can wear his shoes so I can stay, but I didn’t want to cause any issues with him during his shift, so I waited in the car until my mom was done working out.

Next, my job. I love what I do in terms of helping out the employees and serving our military, but I do bump heads with the other management. A lot of them don’t understand that I’m a manager and very young looking. I don’t get the respect I deserve. Most of the management try to throw me under the bus or make it like I’m incompetent. Being the only African-American in management doesn’t help either.

With that being said, my job offers mobility, which means I can travel all over the U.S. and the world as a manager. I can also participate in the HR Management Trainee program and get promoted from an HR Tech to an HR Manager I, which means more money. If I do not go mobile, I will stay in my current position and once I reach my pay maximum of $21.00 per hour, i go no further. Also, I’m the only HR person there. People expect me to be in a million places at once and I put O/T in without getting paid, because its not allowed. When I went on my random business trips to Fort Irwin, i noticed that the HR Teams consist of 2-4 people. Even though the stores are bigger, the team can reach out to each other. I feel like I have no support. I don’t think I want to be the ONLY HR person for 20+ years like the last one. So if I don’t go mobile, I will stay stuck and not progress. When you don’t grow, you basically DIE — on a professional level. I don’t think I will get a raise either once I graduate from college in a few months. One option would be that I can go Civil Service, which means I can buy back my military service time and retire in 11 years. I will also make more money, and I can still travel. Or….go with another company. I even thought about deploying to the Middle East as an HR Tech (with AAFES) for 12-15 months, but they will not have opportunities until next year.

I discussed my concerns with my parents, but we argue all of the time. They say, “God has a plan for you being in this town.” or “You cannot make decisions until you pray. God might not want you to move. You need to be closer to Him and find out what you need to do.” Also, I have 2 lovely dogs and my mom says, “If you travel, they will have anxiety all over and I’m not watching them if you deploy for a year.”

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I get more frustrated and angry. I believe these discussion/arguments create a big divide between my family and I hate that. I want us to get along and for them to understand how I feel. I know parents always want best for their children, but if my family really knew how I felt. I feel so defeated and discouraged. I feel like I get no support from them. Today I told my mom about the deployment idea and she replied, “YOU CAN’T DO THAT! You need to ask God and you can’t leave your dogs.” I said, “I’m grown last time I checked. You need to say ‘I shouldn’t’ not ‘I can’t.’ I can do what I want.” I’m starting to feel resentment towards my parents and my Christian upbringing. I feel like “The man upstairs.” is not understanding my situation and basically punishing me. There is always these “do not” rules and it’s getting pretty played out. I know that sounds wrong, but I feel so trapped. I couldn’t imagine residing in Cal City being His ultimate and divine plan for my life.

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I would love to move somewhere like Las Vegas, where I’m 3 hours from home, but I can start over and live in a big city with more opportunities.

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L.A. is a heck no! The traffic and real estate is so ungodly. I refuse to struggle out there.

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Also, my company is in Vegas, so if an HR slot opens, I can transfer. Lastly, the real estate is cheap! I would have to sell, rent, or keep my house for when I come and visit, but it would be worth it. The best catch with my house is that my mortgage is only $500 per month and it’s a beautiful home! My sister stays with me, so I pay $250 per month for mortgage. I save a lot of money.

The last point is a love life. Some days I feel so unlucky like I wasn’t born under these stars.

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I never had a real boyfriend growing up in this town. When I joined the Army, I got a little wild, then married, then divorced, and did some more playing around, but decided to be celibate back in 2013. I moved back here and I feel like I’m 16 all over again. I get no dates or attention. You would think that I work on a military base and that would help, but no. I guess I don’t look “plain Jane” or need a green card — or overweight for that matter. Because of the limited availability of men and my work/college schedule, I decided to do online, which I’m starting to regret.

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I’ve been on Tagged, POF, and OK Cupid. Most are looking for booty or a place to lay their head. i have standards and refuse to be a “flunkie” in my 20’s, so I’m not going for it. I finally cancelled all of my accounts and started E-Harmony. I could find better quality of men and someone that wants to settle down….or so I thought. I got hits as soon as I got on, but when guys realize I’m not easy, I gets no love folks! I was supposed to go out on a date tonight with a guy in the local area and he cancelled because “Even though our chemistry is great, you are looking for a serious relationship while I’m looking for a casual thing.” Really? Isn’t chemistry the best factor? I believe if you don’t have chemistry, you have nothing. For the last 3 days, this guy has been talking about getting to know me, goals, and sharing mutual interests. But since I pulled out the celibacy card, I go out of the window. Ugh….the struggle is real. Who the heck goes on E-Harmony for casual sex? I even state on my profile my true intentions, which is celibacy and settling down. I guess people can’t or don’t want to read.

The other guy looked like a pedophile and is really weird on the phone. He claims to be a Christian, but is really weird. He has never dated an African-American woman before, so I think he’s searching for the “experience.” He wants to get married in 3-6 months, explained to me all of his disabilities, likes bondage, we don’t have much in common, and he wants to take up a hobby in “gambling.” I’m not going to risk my money and livelihood for your pleasure of Black Jack & Russian Roulette.

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Lately, I’ve been re-thinking celibacy as well. It’s so frustrating and disappointing to come home alone, sleep alone, and just do everything alone. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve gained much clarity and sanity since I started my journey in 2013, but I feel so unhappy as well. Most of my old Army friends tell me I need to get laid, but I don’t think that would solve anything. Well….maybe….I did a post awhile back about the show “Gigolos” from Showtime.

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My favorite gentleman is Ash and I see the struggle most women deal with. They get stood up on dates, taken advantage of, or abused. At the end of the day, they want sex, love, and affection without the drama of being rejected. I promise you that I’ve thought about it. I know it’s a taboo subject but I’d rather pay for sex then be caught up in the friends with benefits bs. I’ve already done that and it’s not fun. Friends with benefits is non-existent.

In conclusion, I am a small town girl with BIG DREAMS! I don’t want to feel isolated or miserable by residing here. The world has so much to offer and I feel like I’m missing out on everything.

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Almost Doesn’t Count

(Continuation to “Lames”)

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I wish I could say that I finally have love cornered against the wall. or the fact that I’m absolutely bulletproof, but ladies and gentlemen…I am neither.

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So, I take my co-workers advice and start an E-Harmony account. This will be my last and final shimmery hope of online dating. Silly me though….I made the mistake of getting a year account, which was $200! I thought I would get credited $20 per month out of my account. So much for my Loan bill….ugh…..

Two days on E-Harmony, I get a smile and a message from a handsome, Latino gentleman from Las Vegas — did I mention he is a Christian too. So now, I’m all pumped up and excited. He sends me 5 questions and I do the same. I get a message a few days later stating, “You are very beautiful and I would like to get to know you better.” I message him my phone number and I get an instant text saying, “Hi, this is Sergio*”

My conversations with Sergio turned from texting to straight up FaceTime. I finally got to see his face compared to the pictures and he looks the rapper Pit Bull!

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He was also a Christian and seemed respectful, so I’m relieved that I’m finally talking to a gentleman. Even though we live 3 hours away, we agreed that I would come out there in mid-July to see if we will work out (first date compatibility). I did not want him to come out to my town because it’s boring and absolutely nothing to do. Vegas seems way much better!

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So one night, we are doing Facetime and I said, “I submitted my leave in for mid-July and awaiting approval. I am going to go ahead and start looking at hotels.” Sergio says, “Why get a hotel? You can stay at my place.” I got one of those HOLD UP….WTF moments again….ugh….why!

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I kindly said, “I would prefer to stay in a hotel since we are meeting each other for the first time. Plus, I’m celibate and looking for something serious. I just don’t think it would be a good idea to stay at your place.” He said, “I’m sorry. Did I offend you?” I said, “No, I am just playing it safe.”

As the days went on, I noticed our conversations lessened a bit, but he was still texting (I was too), so I didn’t get worried. During my business trip, I asked, “Do you want to talk tonight?” Then, I fell asleep. I woke up to a text saying, “I called you.” I’m like, “No you didn’t. Try again.” Since I was staying in a hotel at an Army base, the reception is TERRIBLE. So for 30 minutes we tried getting in touch with each other. Now, I’ll be honest….I LOVE MAKEUP and I’m very high maintenance.

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This time, I had NO MAKEUP on. I thought “bump it.” I can’t be made up all the time. I want to be honest and real with this guy. I will never look like a model 24/7.

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So, when he sees me on Facetime, he doesn’t look too happy. He could not get off of Facetime any faster. So I’m thinking, “Dang, did I look that bad?”

After our Facetime mishap, I got lesser texts than before. He used to call me “doll.” I wasn’t even getting that anymore. The last text I received from him was this past Friday which was, “Good Morning.” I texted back, “How are you?” and that was it. I didn’t get a reply or anything.

So, I had a pep talk with my mom about the strange events between Sergio and I. She felt like he is not talking much over the hotel issue. I did tell her that the talks became less over the hotel comment. My Dad laughed because he knew what was up.

So, there is this page on Facebook called RTAR (Real Talk About Relationships). I posted my current situation about Sergio and wanted to know what would be my next move. I heard different replies such as, “I wouldn’t go to Vegas now.”, “He’s after booty. Leave that alone.”, “Girl, I would go by myself and ‘turn up'”, and lastly, “You aren’t giving him a chance. Maybe call him and see what happens.” I know he was currently working on a boxing project involving Mayweather and I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt, but something in me didn’t settle right. A gentleman on the RTAR page gave me the best advice ever!

Mr. Terrence –
Good morning Tijera, to be honest with you he sees you as an out-of-town booty call, no man with any respect, decency, or common courtesy would pull that old school move. It’s the oldest trick in the book to extend his place to you, to lessen the burden of having to spend money for a hotel room. Tijera, I have two beautiful daughters like yourself and trust me they were well educated about scenarios like this. The reason he slowed down the communication is by design and with a purpose. First one is to make you feel guilty by flipping the script on you for not wanting to stay at his house on your first visit. Secondly, this is a way for him to end the relationship on his terms. Finally, he’s trying to wait and feel you out so he can apologize for his mistake for not respecting your wishes in the beginning. Tijera, he his already showing no respect in the early stages of your friendship how can you trust him in a long term relationship? Trust your instinct and your heart, communication is the key for all aspects of life. You deserve the best don’t settle for less make these men earn your love, heart, and trust please.
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So, Saturday morning, I woke up and decided to call him and try — even though deep down I knew that I wouldn’t probably here from him anymore and my gut instinct was right about everything.

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I mostly don’t do this (phone call dudes or blow up their phone) and I did not get the normal “Good Morning” text I would always get from, but I needed closure. This situation was frustrating me because I felt like I didn’t do anything wrong and this was a classic game.

So, I called and said, “Hey Sergio! This is Tijera. I hope your project is going well and I we haven’t talked in a few days, so I hope everything is good with you. Hit me up when you get a chance.” Ladies and gentleman…I didn’t get a call back or text and that was my signal. Silence from someone can give you the best and ONLY answer….move on! I have so much to do, I have to carry on.

The normal reaction for me is to get down a bit, which I did because I’m just tired of games.

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I’m in my 30’s and actually looking for something real. I’m not about sex (like I was in my 20’s or after my divorce) or treating people bad (asking for money and using dudes). I’m not the type of woman to ask about light bill or gas money and not even know the dude.

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One thing I notice about men these days is that they say they can handle and independent, self-made woman who has her own, but deep down they feel like they are losing control or don’t feel deserving of me, which again is not my problem. I would rather rise with someone, then have to drag them all over the place. What happened to “power couples?”

I don’t deserve it
She’s just a little too perfect
She’s just a little too worth it
I don’t deserve her at all, no not at all
I only text her, man I never call
I’m still a canine at heart, I’m a dog

Company ~ Drake

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On the other end, I don’t need a man inquiring about booty and not wanting to get to know me. These times are definitely rough. Money and sex are the main motivation instead of love. In my personal and humble opinion, he could be talking to more than one girl. In these situations, the sluttiest one WINS! I just want something real, even though I have some days when I want to give up and just get laid. I am starting to feel that being the “good girl” and doing the right thing sometimes takes a toll. I feel like I’m finishing last.

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“To be honest I find it hard to believe that there’s someone out there that would be able to spend the rest of their life with me.”

~Rihanna

It took me a day or two to realize that I didn’t do anything wrong and I walked away proudly (again for the millionth time). I don’t have to text him constantly or get “ratchet.” Sometimes I let things get to me or think I’m not good enough. I think I have something (relationship/love) in the bag, but it slips out of my hands. You know what though? It’s his lost & his problem, not mine. I don’t have time for games & bs. In all honesty, I’d rather would of respected Sergio more if he was honest & said that I wasn’t the girl he wanted or didn’t want to wait. Instead, he went away silently and faded into the black. It goes to show you that he wasn’t man enough for me. I shouldn’t have to lower my standards or act like a loose whore to get a man’s attention.

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So instead of focusing on stupid men and games, I’m taking that different “angle” and it feels good. I’m getting caught up at work & 9 classes left until my Bachelor’s degree. I just try and keep my mind & motivation on the REAL things that matter!

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Hopefully one day I get to finally achieve what I want in love!

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Tijera

L-I-F-E-….Never What it Really Seems

As I grow older, I realize that everything in life isn’t as what it seems. We go through weird phases every 5 years or so….I guess…..At the end of the day, human beings just can’t make our minds up on what we want to do. We always want what we can’t have, or expect something to be ungodly amazing, but it really sucks!

You become single, date, meet guys, and turn up, then realize you want to be married (ball & chain included), sit on the couch and cuddle to “Last of the Mohicans”, or you get married and miss the “quietness” of being single and the freedom. It seems like you can’t leave the house without a “Where are you going?” Really? I’m going to yoga and coming right back….smh…..

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You sit at home and wish you were working and making money and being productive. But 3 months later, you become employed, and six months later, you would LOVE to call in to just sleep in for 10-12 hours (yup! that’s me!!!). I’m not a morning person, and I don’t think I every will be. Getting up before or around the sun rises isn’t my thing.

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Or you hope and pray you can go to college and be educated like all of your friends and family members, but 77 credits later, you don’t want to see another text book or computer screen! I’m the type that looks forward to Accounting or Philosophy, then Week #5, I’m ready to get the heck out of there and start something new. Also, Science and Algebra kicked my butt, but I’m almost there!!! YAY!

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I had a HR mentor tell me, “HR is not what you think it is. It will always be the total opposite.” So…with that being said….I love my job as you all know. I enjoy all aspects of HR (except Payroll — I hate being responsible for someone’s money), but the people sometimes make me want to pull my tracks out! I mean, HR is a “people” career. I have to be caring, compassionate, a problem solver, and a bunch of other things to appease the employees. In my last 8 months of working in this field, I’ve had things from mediations, disciplinary actions, office drama, complaints, YOU NAME IT!!! But, at the end of the day, when I defend someone because it’s the right thing to do, meet strangers at job fairs, get thank you cards from employees for kicking butt, and lastly, participate with my Veteran Alliance Employment group to help Veterans find jobs and save them from homelessness, that makes me smile.

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I can walk in the house, put my purse down, and lay my head knowing that I kicked some major butt today, and helped some people along the way. I’m not going to always have the best days, but I hope I can make someone’s day the best!

Things in life will never go your way, or my way, but we can just make the best of it by dreaming big, smiling, and always praying.

Tijera : )

#WERK

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So, I’m back for another writing round (ding, ding)!

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As you all know, my life is surrounded by work, college, and pretty much a boring home life (I love my folks and dogs, but it does get boring). I’m trying to take life by the horns through means of traveling, soul searching, and other things. It’s been pretty hectic these last few weeks.

My HRM (HR Manager) resigned and works for a new company, so I’ve been taking charge and handling my base and Fort Irwin (which I’m traveling to this Thursday for a job fair), Science is kicking my butt, but I have a good grade so far. One more week to go! Next week I start taking 2 CLASSES EVERY 5 WEEKS! It’s gonna hurt, but I’ll graduate by the end of this year and go for my MBA. I’m honestly burnt out with school and ready to enjoy nice quiet evenings, instead of my eyes burning at a computer screen.

As for dating….well….lol…..it’s not happening for me and I’m just chillin’. Pretty content about it all and just letting things flow. I think I have too much going on anyways for this to be happening right now in my life. It will all come in due time. For now, I chase away the married dudes and unemployed guys with a taser and baseball bat….what…I have standards you know?!?!

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Celibacy journey is going well. I think I can get used to this….hahahahaha….not forever but almost 2 years of waiting is a good start! Some days it’s pleasant, other days, it’s like a “wrecking ball”. But then. I have to grab a hold of myself and ask what am I doing this for and is it the right decision? Well…it is. No drama. Check! My sanity. Check! Happiness. Check! At the end of the day, its MY CHOICE!

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I’m at the point in my life where patience is EVERYTHING! I have to stay focused and have my eye on the real “prize”….eventually settling down again — with the right one. You can’t use the same tricks, cause you will always get the same results, and the joke will only be on ME!!! : )

For now, I have this “itch” for adventure….Portofino, Tokyo, Vegas, Miami, you name it….I’m trying to go. Still got to plan this Miami trip for the summer or fall and I escape to Vegas at least once a month to re-gain my sanity. I’m heading back there next month, to do some solo exploring. i went a few weeks ago and when I went over that hill, life came inside my body. I was nice to see flashing lights, airplanes, malls, and freeways. On the other end…..it was heartbreaking to go back over the hill and see….brown! My goal is to one day live there, but that is in a few years from now. But until then…..

VIVA LAS VEGAS!!!

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Bye for now & thanks for listening!

Tijera : )

WHAT’S NEW?!?!?

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I’ve been away for too long! OMG!

I am doing well ladies and gentleman. I’ve been on my job as an HR Tech for 30 days and it’s been interesting. Sometimes I get intimidated because I’m actually in a management position and wonder, “Am I over my head?” or “Can I handle the position I’m in?” I really love my job, but I have so much to do. Each day is never the same. One day I might be doing paperwork for a disciplinary action, and the next day I’m interviewing candidates for a job position.

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I went to Fort Irwin, California (Army Base) for a few days to train, which was fun. No I didn’t hook up with anyone and get laid! The guys were hot, but I’m not feeling military men like I used to. Anyways, I learned a lot during my 2 days and I get some extra cash on my next paycheck. SWEET!

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With other things, I passed Algebra with a C, which I’m excited about, but I feel like my grade should of been better for the fact that I paid almost $800 in tutoring!!!! I’m not using him anymore cause he argued with me on my last day of tutoring and accused me of wanting the answers. DUDE….why would I drive 200 miles a week and pay $750 if I wanted the answers. Cheating would of been a lot cheaper…trust.

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On the the other hand , I’m back in college and taking Human Resources Management, which is up my alley. I should do well in this course.

I don’t want to jump the gun and say “I met someone”, but I think a guy at work has a “jones.” I’m glad he doesn’t work at the Exchange, but in one of the stores, which is a relief.

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Next thing you know, we are talking about the Lord and other things, which is rare to find other Christians in this world.

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I think he’s sweet, but I’m not going over my head. We are just friends and I see him whenever I do. I’ll be a classy and real lady if something comes between us, and if not, I’m going to move on and enjoy my life. Nothing is guaranteed!

I’m still waiting for the Fashion PR Confidential Workshop location so I can go ahead and purchase a hotel room. I’m excited about this workshop and I’ll find out if PR is for me or not….we shall see.

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So…these are the days of my life and I’m enjoying the ride.

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Tijera

No Props, No Clothes

August 25, 2014

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So…I start working next Tuesday (September 2nd) and I’m slightly stressed. I think I will do a good job once I get the hang of things, but I feel that I do not have enough clothes. See, the dress code is business casual, and I have a few items, but…..NOT THAT MUCH!!!

Despite my HATE for the Army Uniform, it was easy to find it and go to work.

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Don’t get me wrong, I love wearing regular clothes and dressing up, but like I stated before, it’s not enough. I will have to probably wait until I get paid this week and shop (pay bills FIRST). If I don’t have enough cash, maybe put some clothes on lay-a-way and/or mismatch until more clothes arrive in my closet.

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We shall see….

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XOXO,

Tijera

Ready, Set, GO!

August 21, 2014

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I should be in bed right now, but I made a vow to catch up on Algebra Labs and I’m stuck on a particular topic. I started around 10:30pm and it’s right now 4am!!!

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Yes, I’m an insomniac, but no shut eye for me yet. I have more to say….

My life has been drastically changing in the last few weeks or so. First off, I did resign from the PR internship. I enjoyed working their, but it started to take a toll on me (Algebra class) plus I feel like I need a PR internship where I have more hands on experience in Public Relations. My search is not done for that type of internship, but now I have to put the baton down.

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(Not this place, but you do understand right where I’m trying to go right!?!?!?!)

Also, my time with VAIN is wrapping up. I enjoyed the last few months with this company and have gained so much experience. Also, I think we have the best department within the entire company (HR WHOOP WHOOP!). The communication and teamwork was amazing. I will miss my co-workers and wish them the best!

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Well…I have been applying for jobs and a particular one caught my eye, which is in Human Resources (Business Partner position); 15 minutes from my home (Edwards AFB, CA), so no commuting for me! : )

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My veteran unemployment representative from the EDD sent an e-mail about the HR position with AAFES. As for this position, I will be in charge of Human Resources matters for the entire Edwards AFB Exchange/AAFES store, which include hiring for the Starbucks, Burger King, AAFES store and other places. Also, employee relations, promotions, reprimands, and firing.

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I just was getting used to being home and collecting unemployment, but I cannot sit idle for too long and those checks don’t last forever. The goal was to never stay home and collect checks. My hiatus was only going to be 4-6 months, so I can catch up with family, set my house up, and gain experience with internships. So, with that being said, I decided to give this position a shot. I prayed about it my decision and after a few weeks , I got a call from the Human Resources Manager about coming in for an interview.

When it comes to interviews, my goal is to stand out, but to not become a distraction either. I carry myself professionally, shine with confidence, and try to not look like a Supermodel or Beauty Queen (librarian is the GOAL!). I should write a post in the future about dressing and preparing for interviews…coming soon….

librarian beauty queen

It seemed the like the interviewer was very fond of me, so she called me again for a 2nd interview. This time, it was my previous interviewer and the Regional Manager, which had a serious…………

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I believe I did pretty well, so I sent a thank you letter and just waited. Yesterday, I got a phone call stating I got the job and I’m super ecstatic. GOD IS GOOD! I have been keeping myself busy since I left the military, but it’s time for me to get in to the workforce again.

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I’m just waiting for my background check to come back in, which should be good. I’m not about that “Hard Knocks” life.

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Good news…I will still be able to attend the Fashion PR Confidential workshop in October and do the Fashion Editor Internship on the weekends.

FASHION PR CONFIDENTIAL WORKSHOP IN LOS ANGELES!!! : ) LA SIDEBANNER

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Bad news…I won’t be able to work with Project ETHOS (if they decide to call me about volunteering). Oh well….at least I’m working!

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With college and my job, I do not have time to be running around and stressing out over a man or date. I have a date with destiny every Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Mondays — Algebra or college in general.

This relationship will pay off in the next year or two…GRADUATION!!!!!  I mentioned the whole “guy” or “dating” thing because I’ll be working on a military base and around a similar environment like the Army.

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As for military men, a lot of them are attractive, but I’m very turned off by their cockiness and misogynistic attitude. I’m not saying ALL are like this, but the MAJORITY are…#TRUE STORY! No matter what, my focus will be on better and more productive things. I know some will catch my eye, and I will definitely catch theirs, but I have more important things at hand. When Mr. Right comes, he will come, but for now, I want to LIVE and enjoy my life.

It’s a blessing to be in the position to make my own choices and do some things that I want to do. It’s more than just sleeping in during the week or looking like a beauty queen every day (well, not quite…but I do not have my boss or any superior jumping down my throat over red hair and french tip nails.) . It’s about spending time with family, returning to my “old self”, and just the smell of freedom.

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I know I talk about the military a lot, but I served and did the best I could do. I sacrificed a lot of things to get where I am at today and it just wasn’t for me. I don’t know how I made it, but God’s hand was on me and He carried me through. I do not regret my decision of leaving the military. I am enjoying my family and putting the pieces together for my wonderful future!

Hopefully I can take a nice vacation sometime next Summer and maybe…just maybe…purchase a Louis Vuitton bag! It could happen!!! : )

dr lv

XOXO,

Tijera

E= MC NO MOTIVATION

August 19, 2014

albert      algebra

It’s Week #3 of Algebra I and I’m not doing too bad. It’s just the fact that Math is not my favorite subject. Also, I’m getting very lazy in terms of doing Math Labs. In all honesty, I am getting the hang of how this online Math class works, so not being able to catch on to the rhythm threw me off for a bit. Due to the lab “factor”, my grade yo-yo’s from 50% to 70%. So this means my butt needs to get in gear here on out.

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As for my tutor, he’s AWESOME and I’m learning so much about Math. He’s probably gonna earn over $1,000 from me with tutoring lessons, but my grades (GPA) and getting over the General Studies “hump” is what counts right?!?!

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So, my game plan…..

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Prayer, staying motivated, and having better time management skills. My planner looks real full with a bunch of crap and assignments to do.

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I should be good, but I have to keep my eye on the degree and graduation prize!

goals   #CLASS OF 2016!!!!!

I will be doing great things with my Public Relations and Human Resources double major.

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XOXO,

Tijera

Settling In

SETTLING IN

August 3, 2014

#HAPPY MONDAY!!! I’m amazed at how the time flies and it’s already AUGUST!!!!

So far, this year has been amazing. I had a few hurdles to jump over, but it’s a blessing to be in the current position I’m in.

So…what’s settling in?????…LAZINESS…THE CURSE! I know it”s Monday and all, but I don’t feel like doing #$%& !!!!! FML!!!

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I have PR + Research (work) to do and I need to review information for my upcoming Algebra course, which I am not looking forward to.

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Why are math and numbers combined (the devil is a lie!)!?!?!?

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I do not think I’ll be using Algebra in Human Resources or Public Relations. #ijs…..Besides this course, I have Algebra II & Science left (last general study courses). YAY!!!

For real though…is it normal to feel really lazy in terms of college and work? I’m a very ambitious person and all, but sometimes I just want to lay in my bed in briefs and just SLEEP! Or surf FB and YouTube all day. I guess this is one of the downsides of virtual internships & online college: DISTRACTIONS! Thank God I have a home office where I do my studies + work.

Please pray for me and I just have to keep pushing! I will be #CLASS OF 2016 DAMMIT!!!

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If I only stop being lazy and get my ass in gear!

….And I will post some more blogs sometime this week…. : )

XOXO,

Tijera

success

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MY JOURNEY…

July 25, 2014

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As you all know, well if you read my introductory blog, I’m getting used to being out of the military, working as an intern, and continuing my education (well, I start back college on August 5th. Algebra is a “beast: so I hired a tutor. The last class I took, which was Business, was unreal and made my GPA lower. I could not go with Algebra I & II all alone. I have a GPA to maintain. I’m a year behind because of the freaking class – “double up classes time!!!”).

Also, I am interested in Human Resources, Fashion, and Public Relations. I never quit and find opportunities all around me. I have always been a “go-getter” and believe nothing in this world is free or will fall into my lap. I have to work, search, and hustle to get to the top, which can be very lonely and hard, but sacrifices must be made.

I have been searching for PR/Journalism opportunities and I had a few prospects. One company interviewed me for a PR position (Lingerie and Adult Novelty company…who would of thought?) and the other company sent me an acceptance letter without an INTERVIEW (Fashion Editorial/Journalism).

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Lastly, Project Ethos e-mailed me about the Los Angeles Fashion Week event taking place in the Fall. I am highly interested in volunteering for this event + I have a Fashion PR Workshop to attend (L.A. too). It’s gong to be “Hell on Wheels” for me really soon.

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I’m really thrilled about the opportunities coming my way. The only issue I have is that I do not want to overwhelm myself. I think I take a lot on due to the workload I was MADE to take in the Army. There were no excuses or reason why something could not be done, it was executed within silence and in some cases, fear. Even though I have more freedom, I know what I endured in the past and feel strong enough to take on projects/tasks. I still need to be careful in this area so I don’t crash and burn.

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By the way, I decided to stay with VAIN LLC for another semester. I enjoy my time there and already know and understand the HR department and its system. Plus, VAIN will sometimes hire and will have some seniority (Remember, I just separated from the Army, so I’m getting…(drum roll) UNEMPLOYMENT COMPENSATION!!! Yes, it’s pretty awesome, but I’m not draining it and being lazy about it. I participate in internships and apply for about 10-15 jobs per week). I’m also view this as a strategic advantage (staying with VAIN). In my opinion, life, career, dating, or anything else, is not checkers, but chess. I need successful “checkmates” to thrive and survive in terms of what the world throws at me on a daily basis.

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So…I finally figured out after all these years, FASHION is for me!!!

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i just could not figure out what I want to do. Also, the fears my mom instilled in me about being a broke artist cause of the pursuit of fashion. Anyways, as a “back up plan”, I’m double majoring in HR & PR. Plus these fields are slowly starting to mesh (I did my research).

Well ladies and gentleman…wish me luck on my ongoing career and life journey. GODSPEED!!!

 

XOXO,

Tijera

 

Pictures:

Retrieved from Microsoft Online: Career Sign, Chess Board, and Burn Out

Other media/pictures:

Retrieved from Bing Search: Adriana Lima, Fashion Week, & Project Ethos (Backstage).